TL Boehm - Writer

Poetry to illuminate what is written in my heart

Three day's deep in the wilderness
Water too bitter to satisfy
Can't cry out for the latter rain to fall
With a voice so parched and dry
Dreams broken and Hell before you
Face down on the barren ground
You struggle to breathe a ragged prayer
Your heart screams but your lips make no sound

Would I bleed to save you?
Sacrifice my life to stop your pain?
Or would you struggle to see the Jesus in me
If your eyes met mine again?

Troubled dreams in the morning
This ragged life a scourge I dread
Lose myself in the worrisome world
My heart beats but my spirit is dead
Abandoned to deeper sorrow
Whispered words flood my brain
I find that you wash over me
And I pray for you again

Am I my sisters' keeper
Would I bleed to stop your pain
Hold your tear stained face up to the perfect light
Die to see you smile again?

Am I my sisters' keeper?
Precious sister, I would give
The last ragged breath I have for you
so that you and your dreams can live...

Yes. and then some.

call answered.

TB
062909

Single minded sister
Solitary soul searching
For my whole
Set my purpose defined
Within my spotlight mind
Could see that when you found me
My perfected sight was blind
Serendipity
Filled the emptiness in me

Wistful litanies
Distractions the futility
Of intimate action
Wife and mother not for me
The daydream others
Ceased to be desired destiny
Surprised to find in your eyes
Serendipity
The reflection of a family

This frantic spinning pace
A circular path I race
From frustration to futility
You took my hand and
Changed my course
With measured steps
you run with me
Serendipity
Without you where would I be

TL Boehm 070408
- For Dave

Autumnal Eyes
Like October skies
Lights wane in the fading son
This abyss of blue
Drowns the child in you
And the shadows find me undone

What could I give
Bless the life you live
Build a fortress against the pain
Yet a stone or two
Wont shelter you
The deluge crashes down again

What spares the child
Unreconciled
To the path laid at his feet
Even as I pray
I can’t love this away
If your heart refuses to beat

That babe in my arms
Once fragile and warm
Grows colder by degrees
Slipping away
Like a summer day
This chill before the freeze

Is it worth the cost
Sweet seconds lost
Opportunity slips softly by
Cling fiercely to you
As mothers do
Chase more than tears from autumnal eyes.

10/09/07
TLB

 written for Eric when he wanted to commit suicide.

illumined movement
gentle tendrils of thought
falling gossamer threads
cascade the length of my thighs
the curve of your memory
etched in tattoed linen
Staccatoed sacred songs and sighs
bedclothes thrown
abandoned acts
Onyx eyes avert
Slip serene from porcelain skin
sweet magnolia moments
Ash and shadows
Slivered sensual souls
In decadent repose
Love is a lioness
Regal
Taloned fatal embrace
Precious poetic
Fluid to slake this thirst
Insatiable craving
The open mouth
Is better than death
Ferocious fragile flower
Petals cascade
Flirting dance through crimson ribboned hair
Lost sanctuary
Blasphemous I suppose
In the throes primitive
Sipping sanguine lachrimal offerings
From fractured glass
Flurried words flung
From the hungry abyss
I pale in your wake
Dissolved in salt spray and stellar wind
A damp echo
Sex and secrets unspoken
Brittle wings crack in the afterglow
You know....
I am lost
In the universe of your words
TL B
2007 - for Sharon.

Digital intimacies
Electronic emanations
Slip surreal from screen to screen
Sheer veneer of a virtual dream
Reminiscent
Of lovers whispers
Gossamer summer sunlit surf
The western wind skimming shallow
Surface
like a whisper
Starlit evenings
Gentle breezes and tentative fingers
Brush the tendrils away
From sacred places
Leaving whispers
Kisses on the wind
Words lost in the ferocity of rushing moments
Shhhh
Let me hear you whisper
Above this screaming dream
My life white noise
Flickered whispers
On a virtual screen

062807

love on ice
Fever quenched
By the cool blue of you
Granite hands
Smooth exterior
Coals dropped on cold stone floors
My heart tremulous staccato beats
Winged whispers under glass
Undulant tongues stutter
perilous warnings
But I fell into
this cooler blue of you.

TL Boehm

051407

I have laid you down so many times
Under whispering trees where sungilt leaves
Shift and change dancing shadows across my soul
I have worshipped you there as you sweetly seduced
My shivering spirit
quivering with anticipated emotions shimmering
on the surface translucent with sweat and ink
and you have cradled my heart
Caressed my psyche
Yet suppressing the final climax
Just shy of oblivion

I have dragged you through the mire
the fire of my rage intensified on pages stained
Crimson ink artierial red that bled with the demons ire
I purged visceral from my gut
Spurned and scorched spit venom from my mouth
Dripping acid and sadness I have crucified
Your every effort to bring light to the page
Chasing the black hole you have led me
Just shy of oblivion
 
I have allowed you to seduce me with myriad images
Titillating feathered strokes and sighs in my mind
As forbidden skin soaked in honeyed prose slips
From satined paper
Fluid wetness from my pen
My pulse racing as my hands shake to contain the excitement
You led me
Virtually undressed me
Then left me
Exposed and embarrassed
Just shy of oblivion

you have enraged me
Upstaged me countless hours spent pursuing you muse
As you use my efforts in vain
Bring pain to the forefront of my path
The etched in retrospective aftermath of poetic cleansing
Inextricably twisted we
You are elemental 
Wild yet gentle
Broken girl on gossamer wings
You are the one who brings
My only refuge free
You are the poetic child in me

10/2/06
TLBoehm

snakeskin smooth
Jewel encrusted skin glistens in the warm light
Rare lapiz
Jade and smoky topaz glow
Citrine eyes bely your ancient soul
Taut muscular legs
Lean and built for speed
My fingers linger
Pulling gently on your spikes
Translucent sheath you shed
As summer trees shift from emerald to gold
Mute memories of you fall from hands that stroke
Nurture you
Onyx nails clicking
Autumns rustling chill
Yet still I remember
The warmth of your skin
My reflection jasper pupils
You knew me
Do you still?

For Ollie - our iguana...I miss the monstrous chica.

092106

Would you kiss me

Gently

On the back of my neck

My collarbone

Whisper soft

A feathers’ touch

Would you close your eyes

Breath to breath

Linger

Lost in the moment

Embracing each taste

Sensations

Sweeping down my spine

Stopping

Before the mundane

Mechanical act...

Leaving foreplay

For the desperate

Communicate your forever love

Not your temporal lust

Just seal me

With a kiss

Goodbye

To keep me

Until the time is right

For the two of us

To be one. 

0806 - the idea of the poem was simply to describe a kiss....

Cast away in a placid scene

shed sandy shores for the burning green

Of my hideaway underneath the leaves

Missing you and my spirit grieves

Our moments shared on summer days

Remembering the tide that plays

Casting lines of dreams along the shore

Such a shame you cast your dreams no more

On shallow moments left behind

Memories fade until I'm blind

Deeper water she called to you

My verdant world turns cooler blue.

083106

The rumbling thunder

A few decibels under

The pulsing in my veins

The rhythmic flow

Compels me to go

Running through the pouring rain

If I could be

Naked and free

Underneath a blanket of green

Falling from skies

Cool grey like your eyes

Laid in the grass of a pastoral scene

Yet I sit in sterile confinement

Behind this cold glass pane

Unable to feel the breath of wind

The gentle caress of rain

Leaves tremble and sway

Fluid dance of the day

Cool rivulets caress the ground

I think of your fingers

The wetness lingers

Its in your kiss I am found

In the quiet blue

I think of you

You wash my soul clean with your love

The pattering rain

Brings thoughts again

Gentle whispers from above

Yet here I am on the other side

Behind these four white walls

Unable to feel your gentle touch

Or savor the rain that falls.

TL B

083106

Butterfly

Gentle spirit flitting free

So quickly the road turns

I cannot see

Transparent the future

Fleeting your time with me

What the future brings on sunburst wings

The measure of your destiny

Butterfly

Summersaults in aspen leaves

Dancing in the winds of change

Capricious dream you weave

Solitary sadness seaps

Raindroplets dripping under eaves

When you fly away forever

You'll take my light and I will grieve

Butterfly

Soar aloft sweet summers song

The distance grows

Nights grow silent, long

If I blink for just one moment

I'll look again and you'll be gone

Butterfly my child swept away

Now a man forever gone....

08/252006

TL Boehm

I don't know how it is with you - when you write...how much of your real life you superimpose over the image onto the page. For me - I am so much more real on paper than I am face to face - unless you really know me...This shell - I hate it. The way it looks...what it says. But if you could see my soul. My heart. That is the real me. Not the aging fat chick in the picture. I'm not in the loop  again. Its just that the picture yesterday reminded me of my older son, Fred. He is doing what young men do....he is growing. Spreading wings in the morning light...and while part of my soul sings - you cannot know what it means to me  - the broken one - to have a normal son - part of me clings fiercely to my baby. Wanting to protect him from pain. From danger. And in the end knowing the best and the only thing I can do is let go, because if I cling to tenous wings...they will tear...and the butterfly will be damaged. It just hurts. I finally have this wonderful person in my life...and he is already leaving me by degrees.

Peace.

What is this bliss

That has me amiss

My thoughts verdant burning

Sound of cool rain

Soothing my pain

Nullifies the yearning

To see more of me than you

Hidden from my view

The epicenter of my discerning

This mask of stone

Your presence has grown

Barren branches reach for the sky

The silence belies

My unfocused eyes

Frozen from tears I cry

But you carry me through

To the place that is you

To the where and the how and the why

Turbulence grows

Cold wind blows

My mind is storm filled and gray

But you are the mark

The light in the dark

I stand clinging to what you say

In you I have seen

Fields of green

Upon this troubled path I stay.

072006

We are but moments transient

Sunlight dancing on honeyed skin

Onyx eyes flash saturnine

Burning memories on the heart

Connected

We feed the need

To be more than ink on paper

Digits in cyberspace

She was

Beautiful

Gifted

Eternal

And her touch

Forever changed each soul

She is more than the sum

Of her moments transient

For Bonita

http://bonitasanchez-jacobs.memory-of.com

Drawn deeper
From the shallows
The shore secluded
Treading the water of my thoughts
That sparkle skipping tips of waves
Glimpsing shadows of you
Luminous beneath the green
The aquamarine shifting lit
Obsidian eyes link for an instant
You call from the deeper water
Cool movement
Liquid
Infinite motion
This ocean soul
Rolls through my spirit
Surrender to the beckoning
A superficial sacrifice
Drowning in shallows
Yet you turn around
You gave
Cresting waves of pleasure
Yielded your treasure
Cast up on shifting sands
Held in my trembling hands
This gift of love
You save

TL Boehm 07/07/06 

Will you carry on

Over open water

Will you go

Toward the rolling shore

Will you fly high

Ever rising spires silent skies

Rush of wings brings you home

This is the moment

Smile and cry

Goodbye

Will you leave me for ever

Little girl no more

Sail far from this troubled shore

Broken wings can’t fly with you

If I could be your light house

Shining bright for you

But I’m only the mirrored darkness

Reflecting torment we go through

One faded image shattered

By the stones thrown from passing years

Bruised and broken on the highway

Washed away by blood and tears

Will you carry on

Through windswept waves

Will you go

Til you find your way

To a harbor safe and dry

Spread tearstained wings and fly

Until you find your way home….

Leave me lost

I stand sentinel

On this troubled shore

Alone

© 04/01/2006

For Buffi and Bethany

Azure eyes
Like western skies
My precious porcelain doll
What I wouldn’t do
To protect you
I am here to break your fall

Then you send the rain
With the force of a hurricane
And I’m flung from your shore
Rage tears us usunder
Like lightning and the thunder
I’m crouched and cowering on the floor

Tormented child
Defiant, wild
Where is my precious son
What I wouldn’t do
To bring you through
This nightmare little one

In the eye of the hurricane
The storm will rage again
I brace my heart for your storm
I wait for the day
When the clouds drift away
And you’re at peace in my arms safe and warm

TL Boehm
1/14/06

For Eric B – ODD? Bipolar? Depressed? Yet still I love him…